what a life..

Yesterday was quite possibly one of the longest days of my life. Also probably one of the most confusing.

I woke up to a house full of people who had spent the night after a party at my house with waaaay more beer than people. The night before, everyone was drunk. At one point Dingman and I used my nephew's kiddie pool as a boat in my pool and sang the "I'm on a Boat" song. A guy was running around butt-ass naked, somebody changed my desktop background to Brokeback Mountain, my screen door probably popped out about 10 times from intoxicated people falling or walking through it, I think I tripped over my dog more than that because she wouldn't leave my side - Josh saved her quite a few times from the brunt of my drunk stumbling, and the morning after, there was definitely a mess to clean up.

After I woke up I made breakfast with Matt Dempsy- probably the most delicious salami-cheese eggs ever. Maybe the only salami eggs ever. And somebody was generous and decided to leave a 24oz. of budweiser in my fridge. Beer and eggs. :)

And then last night was amazing.. and confusing.. I'm always confused. But I'm also falling. I heard those go hand in hand. And I'm ok with that. But I won't let it lose it's meaning. Even if that only makes sense to me.

Inevitable?

I miss the days I shared with all of you. We slept wherever and partied every day. We were a family. What happened to our family? I miss you guys.

God, I miss those days.

Roll over, baby..

Look at me.

I'm taken under by a wave.. a beautiful wave of blue and green, accented by the most vibrant angel white. And for a second, I dare not even look.. because when I'm under I can't breathe. Drowning in your eyes and melting in your arms.

Sinking into the ocean, you're above me now. You pull me up to you. And nights like this are why life is worth living. It's why I keep breathing.. to know that we have the ability to feel this way when our world is crashing down around us.

Look at me.
Bring on the end of the world.